Shell of Nothing

"Call me back later" *never picks up*

"You've made me very very very happy" *rarely ever talk*

"What's wrong?" "Just woke up" "Oh, want me to let you go back to sleep" "it's okay"

I feel like there's nothing really going on anymore, he says he is but nothing really happens with us. I know it's harder since I don't have texting but I feel so distant. Like there's nothing between us. I don't know what to expect other than when I call it doesn't hurt anymore when he doesn't pick up. This isn't a good mind set but I don't know what to do, he's always busy. I love him and he says he loves me but it feels like there's nothing. Just a distant abyss. It doesn't bother me that i can't cry really or when I do it happens when I'm alone. I just feel like an empty shell walking around despite the time he can make me laugh. But not like how things use to be. I don't know anymore...

I took that photo and i know it's blurry and can't tell but I like it that way, I think it has more emotions to it.