Relating to a movie

Have ever you ever seen a clip or a scene from a movie and be like 'yeah that's how I felt' or 'this is how I'm feeling'.

Having two names suck, one that's really popular and another that a book/movie destroyed.

I hate it when your really tired till someone tells you something and you can't go to sleep anymore. Or you tried and you dreamed of the situation you never wanted to experience. Maybe I'm over thinking again, and that something isn't really wrong. but I can't tell my brain to stop.

My thoughts are racing so fast that I can't even pick up what I'm thinking, the echoing is driving me insane but I promised I wouldn't do anything. Maybe after hanging out with everyone. I'm just afraid he'll tell me goodbye. No more.

So weird how person can affect someone so much. He didn't say <3 or I love you but earlier he did. He said we need to talk tomorrow. I can't stop thinking, my breathing isn't helping. Then again I smoked about what? 4 ciggs when I told myself I'll stop. I'm so tempted to buy a pack and get a case from Tropical Trends or HT. I can't get alcohol but I need something to calm me down. But I promised no cutting and if I do I fear I'll do it how I use to. Aggressive. I don't have nails to dig into myself but I want to punch a mirror or something to feel pain. I need everything to stop. It's driving me insane, making my head hurt. I wish I wasn't fucking unstable. I hate how one person got me to stop and now that things are going down everything is as well. I have a feeling i won't eat as much, just lie to others saying i did. I can't still taste you nicotine, and your the only thing that's helping me right now.

I hate you Bella Swan as I know what it's like, but you destroyed my name and I can't tolerate the jokes. But I know what it's like to lose the one you love.